HELP PLEASE :) !!!!!!!!!!!!!!?

hey im a 14 year old girl and i have kept diarys since 2009 and i wanted to turn them into a book. ive been through allot in my past from bring myself up my sister and mum going in and out of mental hospital and dads drug problems but none of that is written in the diary's my whole family have had terrible past and it was my turn to get mine i was abused by my teacher (not sexually) so i refused to go to school i was in grade/year 4 i missed all of year/grade 4,5,6 and i lived in the middle of no where and i moved to a town where i grew up and where my family's past was and i got involved with drugs and boys and bitchy girls i got bullied and i mean the whole of high school hated me on facebook i had 500 people saying they were watching me and they were going to get me so i was forced out of school and i missed half of year 8/9 and now i moved away from my home town and live where i used to live and things are looking up but still im thick as **** ha ha but i need help with my spelling and stuff and the diary's also say that i was depressed and everyone used to leave me why i wanted to kill myself i think about it everyday and some songs bring it all back (billy joel-vienna) i no i may not of had the hardest life but i did go through a lot and watching your sister say she worthless watch her get raped and to watch your mum sit there just stareing not talking not eating at the age of 4 is not the best thing and i wanna help people and give them advice im sorry but if you dont agree with any of the above or you just tell be to get an education well you can pee off cause i dont care what you think and im starting a new school on the 6 of june so ill be doing my exams wooop andways cheers and bye :) xx